Well, my masters’ interview is over. But thankfully, my life isn’t. =)

I think I did relatively ok. I know I’ve been fretting and worrying about the whole interview for some time, because I really want to be in this program – clinical psychology. Studied like mad for it, and I know I have a lot to offer to this program. But I guess, sometimes, we can never prepare ourselves for what is to come, but to just believe that everything is in God’s Hands.

I know I did my best. In fact, I tried too hard (during my role play). I know I a more client-centered person (humanistic therapy) but it just didn’t happen that day. What upset me was that I KNEW what issues to explore, but I just couldn’t get the “client” to talk about it. I’ll be honest and say it was a major disappointment, coz its ironic that I could have done better, but I actually gave my best.. it just turned out wrong.

Anyway, i’m beginning to heal from this experience. Slowly, but surely. I’ve also prayed and reflected about this whole experience.. and I realize that I can learn lessons from this trying time. If everything was smooth-flowing during the interview.. I wouldn’t be down on my knees now, learning to humble myself to the Lord. I wouldn’t be reminded that my God is a Sovereign God and He knows all things. And what brings me comfort is knowing that He has my best interest in heart. So yeah.. I don’t know if I’ll get into the program, but if God wants me to be in it, I will be in it. If He decides to “close” this “door”, I know it’ll hurt.. but I truly believe the Lord will open other doors for me. I am relearning what it is like to have God’s Joy as my strength. I am learning to surrender, to submit my all to Him. Knowing that all things come together for good, because I love Him and I am called according to His Purpose. I will continue to be faithful to Him.

I really appreciate all the prayers, support and encouragement given to me by my dear friends and my lecturers/referees. I am very touched by your faith in me that I can be a competent clinical psychologist. I am truly blessed.

*As I was about to post this, something “disturbing” (to me) popped up. Its just one of those old issues that I’ve never really finished resolving. It hurts to remember it, and I honestly still wonder “why”. But then this prayer came to mind:

O God and Heavenly Father,

Grant to us the serenity of mind to accept that which cannot be changed; courage to change that which can be changed, and wisdom to know the one from the other, through Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen.